I decided I should share how I handle not being cast in something that I thought I was a sure thing for and how it makes me feel.
First, I try to think of the positives, let all of my friends who did get in know that I'm happy for them. Grin and bear it kind of thing. I then look at the list for about the 6th time
just to be sure I didn't miss my name...again.
Once I have discovered that I didn't make it...again, and have secluded myself from anyone who I would like to avoid disappointing, I essentially cry my eyes out. It happens. I feel petty, insecure, conceited and worthless, which makes me sob harder. It's ok though. That's why I have a Tomas. He makes me feel better and allows me to get snot all over his shirt. What a trooper :)
I then explain to whomever is around that I am not disappointed that I didn't get it, but I am disappointed that
I didn't get in but some other specific person(s)
did. This makes me cry again.
Now I call my mom. I tell her that we can do that thing we wanted to do that would've been postponed had I gotten into the show. She says they were dumb, I cry some more. Yeah, crying is ok. I know it. Feel free to do so, just don't make it the biggest thing in your life. Remember that life goes on and you have other things to do as well. Talking to my mom reminds me that God must have a different plan for me. It also allows me to talk about the process in a way that isn't necessarily productive, but it makes me feel better...
Then I distract myself with whatever is at hand: TV, Food, a movie, or what-have-you. This is healthy and is a period of time to just relax and not think about anything. After completing this step, I move on to figuring out what I'm going to do with all the time I suddenly have on my hands. This is when I begin to think about filling it up with other things I should probably be doing.
In the end, not being cast is a good way to get things done. Now that everyone knows how I cope, I hope they can learn from it, and again, realize that it isn't the end of the world. Hope you enjoyed my knowledge. Oh, and it comes for a reason, I recently was NOT cast in the summer shows here in town, while a bunch of my friends were. It's sad because now I don't get to bond with them, but they get to bond with each other. I imagine there will be some awkward-ness and stories once everything gets started, but I'm ready for it I guess.
Hope life is treating you well...until next time,
Sing. Act. Live.
Emily Elisabeth
